Heaven and Hell

I know this is quite late, but I was being lazy and busy lately.. Okie… neway… let me tell you what happened since the 16^th of June till now…

16^th June…

Work till 5.30 then went out with colleagues, mainly those staying in the hostel to Neway karaoke for farewell dinner and K session for Emily who’s leaving for Penang to further her studies. Had quite a lot of fun singing though the gang was kind of quiet and did not really bring in the ‘high’mood. Left for home early that night as I was leaving for Singapore the next day at 8am with some of the Cina gang.

!7^th June

Met up with Tham and KY at the station alongside Ken and LP. Woohoo… after a long-planned trip, we are finally going to Singapore to meet with CJ and BW. I was looking forward to it since the buying of the bus tickets… Reached Sg around 2pm and ate Chicken rice (2^nd Best in Sg) at Novena where CJ works… She came over for lunch with us and even treat us to lunch…. Ah… our CJ finally grow up liao, can pay for our lunch with her hard earn money liao…. Then had Chatime bubble tea without Bubble since they were out of it…. Next stop was Little India, where our hostel (Footprints) are, while CJ went back to work till 5pm. This is where the fun part starts, we actually don’t know which bus stop to get on the bus that was supposed to take us straight to little India… after some asking around (mainly towards bus drivers which we pushed Ken to ask) and loads of walking, we finally hop on to the correct bus and got down the correct station… but, we walked the opposite direction further from our destination. Had to call the hostel personnel for directions and then finally found our way into the cozy room that we booked. Ken was complaining bout the walk underneath the blazing sun and thought that we can chill in our room before dinner, but luck was not by his side since the hostel’s policy states that air-cond can only be turned on at 7pm till 9am…. It was 4.30pm at that time…. and there was no fan in the room…. Well… life doesn’t really go our way… Then we left for Orchard Road since KY said that there was this heavenly fried chicken sold there… It was indeed heavenly… highly recommend ‘4 fingers’ food store for Chicken wings though the spicy one is really really spicy. Then we went for Coldstones for heavenly ice cream as dessert…. Highly recommend it as desserts, though the portion is big enough for sharing and is quite sweet as well…..then we went to Marina Bay sands where we missed the laser show but took loads of pictures that were indeed beautiful but also some that I am not really proud of.. Hope Tham uploads it on FB soon so I can see what kind of stupid act I did again….

18^th June

Woke up and went out to Vivo city for the day…. Was there for the whole day (which I have no idea at all how we did) Intended to take the cable car to Sentosa Island as we thought it would be quite the experience and shouldn’t be too expensive. Turns out, it cost 26Sgdollars for a 2-way trip or 24Sgdollars one way…. Since we are kind of poor… we opted out and instead walked. It wasn’t far and cost only 1Sg for entry instead of the 3 for train or bus… so if you have time, I do recommend walking and burning the extra fat… In Sentosa…. I did took a series of photo that I am not really proud of as well (I always do this and then regret bout it when the photos are being posted)… the rest of the day was spend talking while eating in some shop or in the pool on the top floor of vivo city… KY left us for her sis in the middle of the day, taking the hostel key with her… so we couldn’t go home even if we wanted to…. So, we headed back after dinner and met her there…. after cleaning ourselves up, we thought of playing some games before sleeping and thus started a series of laughter which hopefully without blogging about it here, I would still remember even a few decades…. (slight hint for myself: includes dancing, tickling, repeating ‘go into the laboratory and pushing the emergency button’…) hehehe…. The videos are posted in our secret group anyway…hehehe….

19^th June 11

Left for homr at 11am…. Had Mos burger before we left…. Regretted not having a deep heart to heart session the night before but still enjoyed the fun we had. Love the fact that we talk about all the random stuff when we are together, do all the funny stuff and laugh the whole day bout nothing and anything….. No matter how far and long we part, we are still the best of friends that will talk about just anything and be there for each other when any of us need it… Love you guys…. Oh ya…. Just for memory sake… BW did not bath for 1 and a half days….. hehehe… and Love the north mushroom and Thai version of the lab-emergency button saying… hehehe…..

It was Fathers day, so my family went out for steamboat at Puchong…. Was having a fever at that time…. but had fun too…

20^th June 11

Was still having a slight fever in the morning but still went to work…. Apparently I was really sick since I was trembling even when there wasn’t any fan or air-cond…. Went to the doctor after work…. Being suspected of denggi… and was given MC to stay home and rest and take paracetamol…..

21^st June 11

Stayed home and took paracetamol every 4 hours…. Spend the whole day in front of the TV….. went out for Jap food (Hokaido gardens) with dads’ colleagues… had an early b’day celebration….

22^nd June

Me B’day… but woke up with a 38.6 degrees fever…. Went to the doc again… did a blood test…. stayed at home and slept and tv again…. Mum and dad were out at Muka…. Sis dumped me since I was sick and had to stay home…. Younger brother even asked me to bring him out for pasta… bought bak kut teh for him while I was out to get my blood test results…. Borderline Low platelet count…. Most probably denggi… but had to do another blood test tomorrow to confirm…. Went out with the Cina gang…. KY, Ken, LP, Tham, BY and Gan to Secret Recipe for some cake as a B’day celebration for me and Ken…. (the best thing that happened that day)…

23^rd June

Woke up feeling healthy… went to work… then blood test…. platelet count increasing…. Getting much healthier… It’s heaven again….

Just 1 week and I experienced heaven and hell…. But as long as there is my bunch of friends and my family by my side, Hell would be gone within minutes and heaven will be just within grasps….. Love all of you guys….

Talk too much

I totally hate it when people talk too much.... I mean... I get the point, u don't really have to repeat and repeat and repeat the same thing over and over and over again.... It makes me wanna shaft a cloth in your mouth to ask u to shut up..... Since u keep doing this, I will jut have to apply something that I have trying to put into use but failed so many times before..... turning a deaf ear..... It was never really what I could do... I kind of listen to whatever people say and feel the emotions running in me due to the words uttered by the mouth.... and in the end when I can't stand it.... badaboom... I react in a nasty way.... Though today i did just kept my mouth shut.... so it means that I can control my emotions better than I used to be able to.... which should be a good thing.... but, i did rant some of my anger out at the machine I used after meeting with u... 'Mr. I can't stop talking crap that you don't want to listen to'....
I know that I myself talk too much too sometimes without thinking of the consequences of uttering each word I said.... but this is me.... I don't really think twice when I say anything, I know that I hurt you when I do that, but i did say sorry after that..... I hope u all don't mind.....

In need of upgrading myself in these 2 fields....
Mainly.... Not being so emotional when people say things that I don't want to hear, just turn a deaf ear and close one eye and ignore them..... And, not saying things without thinking over the consequences of saying it.... especially when it is supposed to be a secret....

Being the one

By being the one to ask, the fault is on me.... But I need this... I hoped that you don't hate me too much because of it.... I shouldn't have been so harsh on you when I said it, I am so sorry. I wanted us to part without a fight and maybe still be friends in the future.... but I guess I was wrong to think so. I will treasure the memories that you gave me. Thank you for standing by me when I was intolerable and loved me even when I abandoned you. Sorry for having to do this to you. For now, I only feel thankful and sorry when I think about you, no longer the passion that was once there. Sorry for being the one to break your heart.

不想

不想再拖着你了.... 要不是再回到这边我也不会做出这个决定.... 原来我已经拖了你这么久了...
I never knew what I wanted, whatever I did before were normally half-decided by other people. Being so easily influenced by people, I tried so hard not to listen to them and decide what was best for myself. Yet all my answers came back with a question mark or an 'I don't know'. Because of this you had to suffer with me. Because I couldn't decide. But looking back at myself for the past 1 year, I saw that I never changed much, though I hold you dearly in my heart, I love myself more. I couldn't give up what I have for you when you did that for me. I am so sorry that I couldn't do that, I am sorry that I am not mature enough to love you, I am sorry that I used up so much of your time and leaving you feeling so sad. I am sorry for everything and I thank you for everything. I sincerely hoped that you will have a bright future and a better life in front of you. I love you.

Back

Hey guys... I am back from a very long break from 'blogging'... I never thought of updating this place anymore but apparently looking back at this makes me think that I actually wrote quite a lot of stuff that I forgot about.... A year has passed since I last blog and I am still here.... not really jobless... but still without an aim in life.... Why is that??? I have been asking myself the same questions for so long and yet I still don't have a satisfying answer... Maybe I will never know what I want for the rest of my life.... maybe it might come to me the next minute... I really don't know.... the only thing I know is that I need to change myself.... I need to grow up... even though it's just a little...
So.. I made up my mind to start from the outside.... meaning my appearance....
1. Lose weight.... not for the sake of looking good (though it's a merit) but for the sake of being more healthy and fit...
2. Cut my hair short.... Just because it's easier to dry when it's short... and it's not that hot with short hair.... and that I can donate it to someone who needs it more (look up www.locksoflove.org if u wanna know more...)

Then... Change from the inside....
1. Feel good about my self.... Something that I lack is Confidence.... With that I can do anything.... It comes when a person accepts themselves and think positively about themselves....
2. Positive thinking.... Reduce Negativity..... by doing that I can feel happier and more content about what I have and thus live more happily!!!!

Well.... Hopefully I will be able to do these points that I set for myself in the near future....


P/S: Thanks Tham... I needed the talk and now the blog.... hehe... Love u....

Just wanted to say.....

Been very free lately without my job.... was just staying home eating, sleeping and putting on loads of weights..... watching drama is one of my favorite past times nowadays since i have nothing better to do.... been thinking a lot since i stopped working.... should I continue studying or not??? or is working a better thing to do.... should i just continue to waste my time like that or maybe do something that is more useful.... What's my aim in life, what do I have passion in?? these questions have been bugging me for quite some time... guess I still can't answer them right now.... when the time comes... I am sure I will make the choice that is most suitable to me.....

Just sent my friends off to the airport just now... they came from hong kong for a holiday, my fren and her boyfren. I doubt that there are anyone else from another country that will come looking for me when they visit Malaysia... It's not that I have not been making any frens, it's just that I never really attached myself to anyone and I don't really spend time to get to know people or let them know me.... maybe that's y i didn't really got to know much people during my uni life.... I did enjoy their stay as I seldom step out of my house before they come since I have no where to go.... did enjoy the fresh air with all the dust and the ache in my leg due to loads of walking and the lack of sleep due to fear that they had to wait for me for if i woke up late.... though i enjoy me solitude time so much... I still love company once in a while..... Oh... just a slight complaint I want to make about my friends is that I felt like a driver fetching them since both of them sat at the back seat while I was driving and there wasn't anyone at the front passenger seat... guess they never thought that I felt like a driver because of that.....

Ever since I came back from uni.... I have chose to listen to english and korean songs rather than mandarin or cantonese ones.....It struck me that my love for chinese music has decrease due to the lack of good singers and songs that would make me sing a long.... while korean songs are being loved due to their music videos and handsome guys, I love english songs due to their funky tunes and sometimes their lyrics which speaks the singer's mind without holding back..... however, there is one mandarin song which I keep playing as i feel the song touch me as the singer did with her voice, the lyrics are good as well.... it has been some time since a song touched me so much....really love it....so....I am introducing it to you all...it's call...劉若英- 我们没有在一起
I would share the song if i know how to... but I don't... too bad then....

Been looking at some photo's lately and saw you in the photo.... seeing your face makes me miss you more than usual.... when will I see you again.... though it's almost impossible to tell you how I feel for you.... I still hope that one day you will learn that the period of time that we spend together will always warm my heart.... thank you for all the memories that you have given me.... I will treasure everyone of them.... Love you..... ( To everyone that came into my life and made it a better one)

Working....

Dear all... Sorry for not posting anything new after so long..... Alright... updates bout me and my life.....
I got a job in Selangor...working as a QC Executive for microbiology in a company which sells lots of different edible products..... Want to know the fun part of my job.... I get to have an assistant.... who does everything there is need to be done and is currently teaching me what I have to do..... My job is to oversee her work and help her out when there is any failure in the experiments....and to sign any documents given to me..... Cool yeah.... A fresh grad gets an assistant who teaches her what to do.... oh.... Did I mention that I have nothing to do other than see her work and sign.... and hide from my boss so he doesn't see me not working... and acting to be busy when visitors come and visit the QC department of our company..... Oh.... and I have been speaking so much Malay in the four days I worked that I feel shocked about my ability to speak Malay....hehehe...... But, My assistant just got a better job offer and will be leaving next month... so I will at least need to do a few weeks of work to familiarise myself with the job and teach the new assistant when she comes..... I am looking forward to that though... since I love working in the lab...though it makes me stink and my mum keep complaining about the stench that sticked to me after my labwork..... Another cool thing about my job.... every month I need to do air monitoring to make sure the environment is clean enough... which i did just 2 days ago... it was quite simple as the job just requires me to expose the agar plate at certain locations in the production area..... here comes the fun part.... I have to wear a jumpsuit (you know....the suit that mechanics wear...the blue one...just that mine was yellow with thin black strips), gloves, facemask, a cap (something that looks like a shower cap....those disposable ones) and plastic bags as shoes..... I really looked like an idiot in it.... well....I actually did wanted to wear the jumpsuit for quite some time... i mean the mechanic 1.... I thought it would look cool on me.... I remember seeing a guy in it and felt that he look so cool and so handsome..... Now.... I think someone who enjoy wearing it is an idiot..... Oh ya..... I forgot to mention bout my lovely boss... or should i say the QC manager..... He took me out for lunch on my first day of work... so lovely right.... since we only have half an hour of lunch break since it is the puasa month.... my colleague say that they will bring their own lunch.... so the 2nd day.... I brought my own lunch.... My lovely boss was so sad when he heard that since he thought he can eat with me.... pity him... he had to eat alone.... I feel so bad now.... but.... it can't be helped... I don't want to rush out for lunch.... He is really nice and fun... and as old as my brother..... hopefully we can work well together.....
Ok.... will update more bout my work next time when I get more work to do.....and when I feel like to....
I am really hungry now.... waiting for dinner time though it is already almost nine.... Why isn't anyone in my family hungry..... wait.... I forgot that I plan to slim down because I am gaining weight.... and I mean lots of weight.... Arghh... don't want care la... eat as i like la.... Oh ya... and my house is almost finished with the small renovations that has been done... Yay.... no more dusty floor and noisy environment....hehe..... Another thing.... Should I go for Boxing or Dancing lessons.... since i will be free on Saturdays.... I might as well learn something.... My sis will be joining me for the lessons after I enquire about them.... but.... as you know.... I am quite slow and lazy.... so it will not be till next month that I will start classes or maybe just go and enquire...hehe..... Sorry for being so random....hehe.... well... guess it is just part of me..... Just ignore if you don't understand....
I guess I am done for this post... will update as soon as possible.... but knowing me you know it won't be too soon....hehe.... We all know you love me.... so don't be too calculative bout that... till next time... with love.....